HAHA!! He probably read the thread where I discussed
Tournament Poker and The Art of War
First off, I applaud you for your honesty with yourself. I'm always inspired when people and make commitments to get their financial situations in order. We only succeed when we hold ourselves accountable.
Whatever, it takes, man. Whatever it takes. Everyone's reached in different ways. Me, personally, I'm scared to death of overextending. I was staked in my mixed game for a couple of months when I took a lot out of my roll to start a business and I had about 12 buy ins for the game at the time. But, that's me.
Go to this thread. There are a couple of books that I mention here that you should read:
Zen and the art of luck?
I understand your issue, though. It's what kills a ton of good players (TJ Cloutier).
And Marm, most people who play poker don't know what a bankroll is. There's a reason why gambling wrecks the richest of the rich and most talented of the most talented. Gambling is an addiction and when you're high, you only want more. It happens.
When it's your money, it's very dangerous. You don't have to comment on this here, but if you owe anyone money, make that your first priority. If you have $200, be real with yourself and your temptations. Don't move up to $20 SnG's until you're at $750. Then you can play $10NL games when you don't wanna play a tourney and you'll be comfortable and in the game instead of being inside your own fear.
You can never play below your bankroll.