As many of u know when i started out getting stake by dee and wota and so on, then i moved on to PTP and ruined my chances after a little problem

and they all end in tilt, my tilting problem

I have a problem, because i started out saying it was just a side thing then one big winning day i was like yeah ill be making thousands by next year, and also with my parents never having money, and usually both working 2 jobs, and now with my dads hurt shoulder but cant afford to take off work and get it fixed (full torn rotator cuff) and his job involves lifting machines that make arthroscopic parts for the body (he works for Biomet)

anyways, so i always felt man one big cash and i can help with the bills or something, just a little something, ive never had my own room since i was born, and im finally getting my own after so long and im excited like im rich, when i know im not, this is not meant to be a sob story but i really do have a problem, i know it affects my game when i think about trying to help the family out or hitting big for me

and i ruin things because of that, ive always had a temper, but ever since i started online poker, its increased and ive been snapping at so many small things thats its not even funny

I know people like david, obga, tripped, fadi will come in to make fun of this but im for real when i say "im not ready for online poker and i have a problem"...i would like to be back in a year or even just 2 years, i might still play some tiny things, but i will be on my way to trying to quit after i pay back Tori's stake

Ive never told anyone that ive had a problem and why i sometimes tilt and get so angry and say and do things i should never do, but i guess after dee told me to tell the truth about the whole tori thing i had to say this because its true

i do have a gambling problem

if u wanna flame whatever its your choice, but id like some advice, this has nothing to do with what TA posted, because he has the respect from everyone, i may never earn it, but i have to say that i really do have a problem, especially tilting, when i cant just walk away

a quote that i wanna leave u with and is true for me

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversey" - Martin Luther King Jr.

I feel that im not good in either spot, i seem to mess up in life when im doing good and when im doing bad, and i really think i need to work on it