I would load a hand but dont know how and almost ready to quit altogether...but am in 9 man 2.25 turbo sng. First hand I have KQ late position and raise X3 BB. other guy calls. flop is K 10 Q. I lead out with half the pot, he pushes....I know it maybe isnt best play but am on tilt and decided to call. He has AA. River comes a Jack (Go figure) and I lose. Just also finished 4th in same tourney, have a strait on turn, opponent and I push, he nails Flush on river. I understand the outs and possible hands I could be dealing with when putting chips all-in. But lately is really just ticking me off, and dontk now what to do anymore, and almost dont care, because just reading a book and watching pros on tv or internet isnt working. I have tried talking myself through hands and decisions, using more math, maybe using more logic, mixing up play. I cant find anything that is working, and now am down to 37$. I constantly get beat out in 1/2$ SNG and my cash game play is horrible, even at .05/.10. I try to stay optimistic but am also realistic....I am not a very good player, and If I cant take down reasonable ROI at 1.25 levels, probably dont need to be risking any money at all online.