I hear you, but I think this was holding me back:

Gah, it hurts

even though it shouldn't get into my thought process, I was just sick of the cold streak! I didn't want to go out a loser again on just a 55, no matter the circumstances. I did go on to win this one, though, so now that the monkey is off my back, I may have seen this situation the way you did.

I am happy wih what I did, though. I know I shouldnt be focused on just results, but fuck it, I won and I don't think it was a bad move to lay it down, though I wouldn't call it a good one, either. Just something that happened.